I was thinking about something that is happening in a TV series I watch with my girlfriend called Dexter. We're on series 4 now and it's incredible, it's basically about a messed up guy who kills people ritualistically. He only kills people that deserve it however, and nobody at all knows about this "dark passenger" of a personality he refers to bla bla bla... Anyway, he's having some trouble in his marriage at the minute about how he doesn't ever share anything with his wife. It got me thinking, how honest can you ever be with someone, really? Is there anyone at all that you can truthfully say you tell every little single thing about yourself to. Should you want somebody to know the way you tick, like right down to a tee?
I don't know why I'm writing this but when I think about something pointlessly random I can't get it out of my head until I've come to a conclusion, and seeing as I'm never usually awake at this time it's becoming seemingly impossible. I don't want to seem like I'm saying people should hide things from the ones they love, but surely you can never expect somebody to let you in to the degree of you knowing their inner thoughts. Letting people in has probably never been one of strong points. Why should I? I don't think anybody would like who i truly am, even though I don't try and hide it... I don't think this makes sense. For that reason I'm going to stop rambling on about that now, and talk about why I love this man.
I don't exactly love him, but more recently I have become fascinated with the book titled "The Books of Albion". Which is basically a collection of his writings with a few pictures thrown in. He captivates me, in every way that he thinks, in the way he conjures up theories about an England in which many wished they lived. They may not be completely original, but for some reason I feel I can relate to them.
I wish for nothing more than to be able to write like he can, behind the facade the media force upon us, there is most definitely an extremely talented poet. If you ever consider reading The Books of Albion, you won't regret it, I'll even lend them to you. If you like the Libertines you'll see the stories behind the songs he wrote.
I'm going to go to sleep now listening to Grace/Wastelands, I've put myself in a much happier mood.
Goodnight.
